| I hate always fighting with the person I care about the most in the world, it's crushing but sometimes
for me it happens on a daily basis, some days can be wonderful and some days can just turn into
complete shit over the smallest things and stupid words that we have said but then we say things we
dont mean and say we never want to speak to eachother again but then days later all things work
themselfs out and we always come back to eachother no matter how mad or what happened before.
but its like when its going good its wonderful it's all flowers and sunshine and when its bad its horrible like
im in a black hole and I don't know how or why im still falling or why i'm not dead yet or simply why i just
havent given up on us, our situation and given up on love. I've always tryed my best to look at the
glass half full even when i'm in a bad spot. I try not to get mad at people because I know people mess
up and I know people make mistakes psh i'm the queen of making mistakes so I should know but wheres
the point u draw the line? when your tired of fighting but you just can't give up no matter how hard
you've tired, when theres no words left to describe how you feel and you no longer understand why
you keep going thru this never ending cycle. Do I do it for love? do I do it simply because you can't see
yourself with anyone else besides him for the rest of my life? do you do it for the fact he is your way out
of here? a new start? I just do it because ive never felt this way for anyone in my life, i'd do
anything for this man and as to reasons why he does not see this i do not understand, why he likes to
see me hurt after everything we have been though. I have stood by him thru thick and thin no matter
what and never lost faith in you or us and I don't think I ever will. If I were to lose you i'd lose myself
also and i'd be lonely everyday from now on. well i'm stopping right here you finsh the story... i'm tired of writing this. |
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| I was never really good with words, but let me tell you something. Ever since I laid eyes on you, I knew you would mean more to me then anyone or anything ever possibly could. You had my heart from the very beginning from the moment god told me that you needed me just as much as I needed you. I still get those sparks that I got the first day we met. Oh, I remember that day like it was yesterday, the day I found myself having a true smile on my face that hadn’t had or seen in the longest time, maybe years. We have had our far share of ups and downs but everything that has gone on has just proved to me over and over again that I don’t want anyone else no matter distance nor fight nor depression. I could never see myself without you by my side. You’re the first person I call about everything and anything that goes on. You’re the first thing on my mind when I wake up everyday and the last thing on my mind before I go to sleep at night. Truly I never thought I would fall in love especially at this young of an age, I thought love was for suckers and it was all made up. It never mattered what people said Or people thought about us because I know what we have is true. Because all I ever really wanted was you. |
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| I L O V E Kyle <3 End of story. 5-12-2009 Forever |
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| I invented sex. lol oh xanga. |
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| OH Xanga, how it's been forever, i've missed you. sooo what's new everyone?!?! I graduated in 09' now i'm in Cosmetology school doing my hairr thing! pretty much engaged to a wonderful man named Kyle <3 planning on finshing up cos school here then moving to Jersey to live my life there with my baby since he had to move back to Jersey almost 3 months ago now.]= but I can't wait. |
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